I’m dreaming differently than I used to and my heart just feels like it’s going to explode. I dream every day of how I’d love my life to go or just dream of different things I’d want and love. I’m not sure if it is the new year… new place we live in or what but my desires are changing and I feel so much peace with these changes.
I want a family… a little baby to hold. I want to always attend the temple with my husband. I want to make it a priority. I want to date him, and strengthen our relationship each day. I want to raise my children in a home where the Holy Ghost dwells and we learn the teachings of God and Jesus Christ. I don’t know what our road ahead looks like when it comes to adding children but I do know that the Lord will bless us with opportunities to fill the need we have to “parent.”
I want to build a strong business from home, doing something I love to keep who I am alive. I want to be successful and magnify my calling as a wife and mother by being true to who I am and still doing things for myself. I love photography. I love crafting. I love art and I am a totally planner junkie.
I want to smile more and be happy. The last 9 years have been a long road… a very hard road. I’m so ready to put that part of my life behind me and open the doors to something new. I’m ready to leave the pain behind, old habits, wishing and regretting. I’m not sure what it is but I feel it in my heart that 2018 is going to be good for myself and my husband. Whether that actually brings anything, I don’t know. But we’ll make it good, even if it’s just our attitude.
I don’t know if this year includes buying a home, having a baby, furthering my education, starting a new business or anything else that could come. But what I do know is that I trust God. I trust His love and guidance. I trust my husband and the role he plays in our marriage and family. I trust the Spirit of the Lord to lead and guide us in moments of decision.
I’m just feeling very grateful tonight. Grateful for who I am, for God, for my husband… my testimony and my faith. I just know that life happiness is a choice and I’m ready to make it!